Go Ask Alice Have you ever had a problem?
I'm sure you have because everybodysometime in there life does. The
book I read Go Ask Alice by an anonymousauthor is all about problems,
conflicts, and how to deal with them. I would give a lot of information
on the author if that was possible, butthe author is anonymous so I can
not do so. From the very first page I had a hunch that this book was
about a drugaddiction problem. "SUGAR & SPICE & EVERYTHING
NICE; ACID &SMACK & NO WAY BACK" (page 1). That was a very
moving quote forme. I am not sure exactly why but I guess because it
shows how dangerousdrugs can be. This book is based on a true
diary of a young girl who got mixed up inthe drug world. Alice bought
a diary because she had a big secret that she could nevertell any of her
friends. It really only ended up being that a boy named Rogershe was in
love with stood her up and she would be to embraced to tell herfriends.
She makes a big deal out of it, I can already tell she is dramatic. Her
birthday is only five days apart from mine, that is a weirdcoincidence.
From September 19 through September 25 she goes on about
hownothing every happens in her life. She does not enjoy her teachers,
subjectsand school. She thinks everything is losing interest and
everything's dull. Ithink she just is going through the "teenager blues".
Julie Brown had a party but she didn't go because she gained
sevenwhole pounds. I don't think that seven pounds is a big deal. On
September 30th her father was invited to be the "Dean of
PoliticalScience at ". She says that she is gonna become a new
person bytime she gets her new house and that it is gonna be so great.
Good maybenow she will quit crying about her dull life. She says that she
is gonnaexercise every morning, eat right, clean my skin (what she never
had a bathbefore), be optimistic, cheerful and positive. Why couldn't she
of just doneall that in the house she lived in before she moved. Sorry
I am being so negative, but this girl is a little cry baby and she isto
dramatic. On October 10th I found out that she has siblings named

Tim andAlexandia that she is gonna stay with while her parents go house
hunting. They bought a Spanish type house and they took pictures.
She said itwill take three or four days for the pictures to get back. That
kind of givesyou some perspective on the time period because now a
days it only take anhour. She went on a diet and lost three pounds but
her mother will no longerlet her diet because she thinks that it was not
healthy for her. She wishes she could be like her mother someday.
She wonders whatit is like to "going all the way" and she wishes she
could talk to her motherabout things like that. So far the conflict has not
been stated. All of Alice's relatives met at her old house for Christmas.
Alice feltwanted. She wishes that she could always feel that way. They
finally got moved in there new house on January fourth. There she
goes again crying about how her first day of school wasmiserable and
how she gained 15 pounds. She made no friends, nobodytalked to her,
and everybody stared at her and made her uncomfortable. Both of her
siblings made friends there own age. She finally made a friend named
Beth. They have a lot of things incommon. There is only about two
months of school left. Gerta is going to aJewish camp for the summer
and Alice is not having much fun so shedecided that she wants to go to
her grandparents for the summer. She went to her grandparents for
the summer. She has been reallybored because all she has been doing is
readying books all summer. She hasbeen reading a book a day. I wish I
could read a book a day. It took meabout three weeks to read this one.
She was in town and she ran into Jill Peters who invited her to a
party.Alice has been wanting to be friends with her for a long time. I 'm a
little confused because Alice says that she has always wanted tobe
friends with her, but she is at her grandparents house. How can that
beunless her grandparents live near where she used to. Alice went to
the party (July 10th). Jill brought out some glasses ofsoda. Alice did not
want to look stupid so she followed what everybody elsewas doing,

sipping the soda. Suddenly her palms started to get sweated,everybody
was starring at her, and the room got quiet. She thought that theywere
trying to poison her. A strange feeling swept over her which strangledher,
suffocated her and made her muscles tense. When she opened her
eyesshe noticed that it was Bill who had but his arm around her. Bill said
"Butdon't worry, I'll baby-sit you. This will be a good trip. Come on, relax,
enjoyit, enjoy it." in a slow record like voice set on the wrong speed. Then
hestarted to kiss her. She heard his voice repeating over and over in a
slowmotion echo type voice. Then she started laughing histaricaly and
wildly. Shethought of the most funny and absurd thing in the world. Then
she saw theshifting patterns in the ceiling. She laid her head in Bill's lap
and watched thechanging patterns and great fields of red, blue and
yellow colors. She tried toshare the experience with the others but she
couldn't put it in two words andall she could do is laugh. Trains of thought
were coming to her. Shediscovered the true language used by Adam and
Eve but it slipped out of hergrasp before she could tell about it. She laid
down and started to absorb themusic physically. She could feel, smell
and see the rhythm of the music. Shefelt that she possessed the wisdom
of the ages but she could not describe it.She looked at the magazine on
the table and saw it in a hundred dimensions.She closed her eyes and
felt that she was floating in a sphere, in anotherworld or in another state.
Her breathe rushed away from her like she was in afast elevator drop.
She felt that she was part of the music, table and of thebook. She started
to dance in front of the whole group and enjoyed everysecond of it. She
heard the neighbors breathing and the Jell-O in thererefrigerator next
store. Later Jill told me that there was LSD in the soda that she was
drinking.
Wwwwwoooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!That was
weird! Now I feel I have reached what is gonna lead into being the
conflict;drug addiction. She has heard all of the terrifying stories about

using drugs but she stillwants to experiment and try pot. Now she thinks
that drugs are not bad andthat all the books written about drugs were
written by uninformed, ignorantpeople like her parents who have never
tried it. That is here whole damn problem. She thinks that drugs are
okay, butthere not. They can cause serious damage. She feels like Alice
in Wonderland. She and I wonder if Lewis G.Carrol was on drugs too.
She went out with Bill. He introduced her to Torpedo's and
Speed.She said it was like she was riding a shooting star but better.
Her grandfather had a heart attack (July 23rd)! He is okay. Alice
stayedhome with him and helped help her grandmother help him (what a
tonguetwister). Bill asked her to a party on August 13th. She
accepted and tripped atthe party. She said it was better than last time.
She sat for hours examiningher hand. Watching the cells and blood
vessels. She also lost her virginity to Bill last night. She sort of
regrets itbecause she always was gonna wait for Roger. She is scared
she might bepregnant. Yup, I was right. That was the start to her drug
addiction problem. Roger stopped by. They got to talking and it ends up
that Roger isgoing to military school. They said they would write each
other and thenRoger kissed Alice. Alice is so mad at her self for
sleeping with Bill and not waiting forRoger. Before she left she took
some of her grandfathers sleeping pills. So ifshe wants to get away from
her problem she can go to sleep. She flew home on August 14th and
eventually used all the pills so shegot her doctor to prescribe her
tranquilizers. The setting of the story is not listed in the book. Because
they can'tpublish it without permission. Yes, the setting does play a role in
her conflictbecause if she would not of went to her grandparents none of
this would ofhappened. All is going well in her life for a while, until she
meets a girl namedChris at a boutique downtown. Her and Chris
become friends and she introduced her to hearts(uppers) because Roger
has been to busy to write her anymore and she isdepressed.She got her

a job at the store she worked at. Chris introduced Alice to her collage
friends, Ted and Richie.Ted (Chris's date) got Alice to smoke pot and
hash (September 26). She feltgreater than she ever had before and
noticed the detail and depth ofeverything. Alice fell in love with
Richie. But he would never let her make love toher when they where not
on drugs. Richie and Ted stopped paying as muchattention to there
girlfriends as they used to. Alice and Chris always talk about how the
"establishment (society)" isso bad and how they hate there parents.Richie
and Ted were drug dealers who had Alice and Chris sell drugsto people
for them while they where at there classes. On day Alice sold some
acid on a stamp to a seven or eight year oldkid. Alice and Chris decided
to stop selling drugs so they where going overto Ted and Richie's
apartment to tell them. When they walked in the doorthey found there two
butt-buddied boy friends making love. That is so nasty it made my
stomach hurt when I read it. They where using them to sell drugs the
whole time. Since Alice and Chris were both fed up with there parents,
theEstablishment, and there X-boyfriends, and using drugs they decided
tomove to California and leave it all behind them (October 19th). They
left a note telling about Ted and Richie and where they hid allthere
supplies. They got a crummy apartment in San Francisco (October
26). Theyeach got a job at a boutique. Chris got hers working at place
where famouscelebrities shop for a lady named Sheila and Alice got a job
for a guy namedMr. Mellani who was like a father to Alice. On night
Sheila and her boyfriend Rob had a party that Alice, Chrisand bunch of
celebrities where gonna be at (November 23). During the partythey got
passed a joint and they stupidly smoked it after having quit for solong.
After everybody left Sheila and Rob introduced them to heroin
(badmistake). They all got high and enjoyed it. Later they came to find out
thatSheila and Rob both took turns raping and playing perverted games
withthem. When they found out they left town and moved to Berkeley.

With allthere money they bought a store, fixed it up as a house/store, and
openedthere own little boutique. All was going well. Alice called her Mom
and theysent two plane tickets back (December 23). We decided to go
back. Alicemade up with her family and had a great Christmas and the
same went forChris. Alice started back at school and kids where
asking her to buy drugsand she told them that she didn't do them
anymore. Kids kept bothering herabout it. Alice and her family have
been going on trips every chance they get. Alice has been off drugs
for a little while when she meets a girl namedDoris at a doctors office.
They go smoke pot and get stoned. Her and Doris get a place and
become hookers for money so they canbuy drugs. There lives become so
messed up over drugs I'm not even gonnago into it. She keeps talking
about how she is in such a hellhole, her life sucks,and she wants to kill
herself. It would all just stop if she quit using drugs. It'ssimple die or live.
You choose. God it makes me so mad thinking about howstupid
somebody could be.Her grandfather had a stoke and died (May 1)! She
just met somebody named Alice. I have been writing this all the way
through the story. I thought that themain character who wrote the diary
was Alice. She buys a new diary symbolizing her getting a new life, a
fresh start,another chance to succeed. She is clean and back at
home and going to school. She met a boy named Joel that she falls in
love with. Her grandmother died (July 16). School got out and there
was a party where there would be drugs atbut she didn't go. She was
given acid in a peanut and she had a bad trip. It drove herinsane so she
started pulling out her hair, stabbing herself and mentally fallingapart.
She was put in a mental hospital. Later she was released. She
decided that when this diary filled up she was not going to getanother
because is old enough and mature enough to be able to talk to
otherpeople instead of keeping it all bundled up in a little book.
Epilogue: She died three weeks after deciding not to keep anotherdiary of

a drug overdose, it is not known if it is premeditated,accidental or what.